blue day

So.

It's been awhile.

There's no excuse, really. The point of having a blog is updating it, and I'm pretty slack in that department. I know I threatened to stop posting entirely not too long ago, but I'll admit, that was all bluffing. Sheer, lying, lousy bluffing.

I was feeling very down for several weeks. I'm not offering that up as a reason for why I haven't updated this thing, but it probably was a minor factor. Very down, very out, very 'blue' as they say.

I had on Thom Yorke's album 'The Eraser' on non-stop repeat, which didn't help matters. It's a beautiful CD, but it can make dark days seem bleaker. There was one song in particular that I kept listening to. I don't know which track number (7, maybe?) but it's called 'Harrowdown Hill.' Yorke apparently referred to it as "the most angry song" he'd written in his life (according to the ever unreliable Wikipedia, anyway). It doesn't sound angry, but at the same time, the lyrics cut to the bone, as does the production, which is unrelenting and hard. The musical lines are sharp and tense, until they collapse under the weight of what they convey, blurring into an underwater world of sonic relief.

Anyway. The song is supposedly about Dr. David Kelly, who died under mysterious circumstances in 2003 after questioning some aspects of the Iraq War. Kelly's body was found at Harrowdown Hill in Oxfordshire, England. The lyrics, though, mesh with whatever you want them to be about -- in my case, little black clouds of personal crapola.

Another reason I've been avoiding updating is that I am dissatisfied with the blog. Part of me wants to go back and clean up old entries for spelling and grammatical mistakes. There's also a piece of my inner critic that is insisting I do some tidying up, some editorial work. The 'artistie' in me is refusing, however, on the grounds that it's my blog and spelling/grammar/whatever mistakes be damned.

I haven't made a decision yet on what I'm going to do. There's also the fact I need to move the blog to another server, since this one sucks and no one can comment anymore. Perhaps when I move it I will also fix it up some.

Until then -- whenever it may be -- I will keep plugging away, and adding entries as I go. (Blue days being an exception.)

Oh, and yes, I'm feeling better.